As I type this I pray that everyone recieves with an open heart and open mind free from judgement. There is something that I DID NOT want to reveal in here but GOD says it's a message and should be heard.
I was a very permiscuous woman up until now. I know big shocker. I'll start from the beginning. As I am leaving a guys room I'm thinking God how has it gotten to this point. Man after man after man is this really how love is supposed to go? NO it's not. On my drive home I felt guiltier and guiltier and guiltier (I know spelling is all wrong and this is probably not even a word). I would have sex with a man pray to God for forgiveness then move on thinking. Ok God forgave me I'm free to continue on with my sexual sin b/c I know He will forgive me again. WRONG THINKING.
When I got home I tried to call an old minister of mine who told me to call her a while ago on what was bothering me. She didn't answer and I think it was b/c God told her not to...hahahaha she just called I will tell her min testimony after writing this. So I went into the Word. I read from the Message translation bc to me it makes everything plain!
1 Cor 6;14-20 reads:
14-16 God honored the Master's body by raising it from the grave. He'll treat yours with the same resurrection power. Until that time, remember that your bodies are created with the same dignity as the Master's body. You wouldn't take the Master's body off to a whorehouse, would you? I should hope not.
16-20There's more to sex than mere skin on skin. Sex is as much spiritual mystery as physical fact. As written in Scripture, "The two become one." Since we want to become spiritually one with the Master, we must not pursue the kind of sex that avoids commitment and intimacy, leaving us more lonely than ever—the kind of sex that can never "become one." There is a sense in which sexual sins are different from all others. In sexual sin we violate the sacredness of our own bodies, these bodies that were made for God-given and God-modeled love, for "becoming one" with another. Or didn't you realize that your body is a sacred place, the place of the Holy Spirit? Don't you see that you can't live however you please, squandering what God paid such a high price for? The physical part of you is not some piece of property belonging to the spiritual part of you. God owns the whole works. So let people see God in and through your body.
As I read this I cried like you would not believe! Guilt sheer guilt. I cried out to the Father. How dare I? Jesus gave HIS body for me so why can I not give my body to God? Instead I'm ruining it!! Also I recieved the Holy Ghost but was wondering where was He? Why couldn't I hear from Him? The Bible says that I'm His temple and He dwells in me! So how is he going to dwell in me when there are so many other spirits in me!!! CONVICTION RIGHT THERE!!! I cried out to God in sheer conviction asked for forgivness. As I was crying out God said take a shower right now! I cried on my way to the shower and as the water hit my body I felt a cleansing lik you would not believe!!! As I got out I felt new but God said I'm not done with you. Annoint your head with oil and give me the praise. I did just such and I AM FREE.
No more sexual sin for me! It is NOT ok to have sex before marriage! It is a gift to your husband or wife not for any Tom Dick or Derrick!! I'm sitting her wondering why I can't here from GOD and it's because there was no space in HIS temple!!
God wanted me to share this it is extremely intimate to me so please do not judge. I will say this.
FROM THIS DAY FORWARD MY BODY IS GOD'S TEMPLE AND I WILL NOT TAKE IT FOR GRANTED.
PRAYER: HOLY SPIRIT RESIDE IN ME WHEN I FEEL WEAK MAKE ME STRONG. HELP ME TO REMEMBER THAT THIS IS YOUR STOMPING GROUND AND NOONE THAT IS NOT MY HUSBAND WILL ENTER. GIVE ME STRENGTH BC THE SPIRIT IS WILLING BUT THE FLESH IS WEAK. I NOW REALIZE WHAT I WAS DOING TO MY BODY AND WHAT I HAVE DONE TO IT AND I SAY RIGHT HERE AND NOW NO MORE!!!! THANK YOU LORD FOR YOUR FORGIVENESS AND MOST IMPORTANTLY FOR YOUR SON THAT YOU SENT HERE TO SAVE MY DYING SOUL. I GIVE BACK TO YOU MY BODY, IT'S YOURS AMEN...