Apr 24, 2011

God will bless!

I am overly excited at what God has done for me. Just for being obedient. He told me to have faith and strength in Him and do some things/ not do some things. At first it was hard but I kept the faith and God pulled through as always!

One of the big things was realizing that my body is God's temple! I can't just put anything into it and definately cannot do what I want with it. The more junk I filled into myself the harder and harder it was to hear from God!. I just got to a point in my life when I was fed up! with it all! I was like life cannot be this hard! The truth is it isn't if you are obedient. We will have our tests and trials but can withstand anything because we are tested but there is nothing that is put on us that we cannot handle through Christ...

I was in my Hotel TDY and was eating my eggs looking outside the window and it hit me GOD has freed me! He has blessed me beyond what I thought I deserved.

Bottom line God loves us and He will always come through! What He promises He WILL deliver. Never doubt have Faith and stand strong and God will deliver. The word says that we will see our reward in the end if we press forward and faint not...

Apr 14, 2011

You are not your own

As I type this I pray that everyone recieves with an open heart and open mind free from judgement. There is something that I DID NOT want to reveal in here but GOD says it's a message and should be heard.

I was a very permiscuous woman up until now. I know big shocker. I'll start from the beginning. As I am leaving a guys room I'm thinking God how has it gotten to this point. Man after man after man is this really how love is supposed to go? NO it's not. On my drive home I felt guiltier and guiltier and guiltier (I know spelling is all wrong and this is probably not even a word). I would have sex with a man pray to God for forgiveness then move on thinking. Ok God forgave me I'm free to continue on with my sexual sin b/c I know He will forgive me again. WRONG THINKING.

When I got home I tried to call an old minister of mine who told me to call her a while ago on what was bothering me. She didn't answer and I think it was b/c God told her not to...hahahaha she just called I will tell her min testimony after writing this. So I went into the Word. I read from the Message translation bc to me it makes everything plain!

1 Cor 6;14-20 reads:

14-16 God honored the Master's body by raising it from the grave. He'll treat yours with the same resurrection power. Until that time, remember that your bodies are created with the same dignity as the Master's body. You wouldn't take the Master's body off to a whorehouse, would you? I should hope not.

16-20There's more to sex than mere skin on skin. Sex is as much spiritual mystery as physical fact. As written in Scripture, "The two become one." Since we want to become spiritually one with the Master, we must not pursue the kind of sex that avoids commitment and intimacy, leaving us more lonely than ever—the kind of sex that can never "become one." There is a sense in which sexual sins are different from all others. In sexual sin we violate the sacredness of our own bodies, these bodies that were made for God-given and God-modeled love, for "becoming one" with another. Or didn't you realize that your body is a sacred place, the place of the Holy Spirit? Don't you see that you can't live however you please, squandering what God paid such a high price for? The physical part of you is not some piece of property belonging to the spiritual part of you. God owns the whole works. So let people see God in and through your body.

As I read this I cried like you would not believe! Guilt sheer guilt. I cried out to the Father. How dare I? Jesus gave HIS body for me so why can I not give my body to God? Instead I'm ruining it!! Also I recieved the Holy Ghost but was wondering where was He? Why couldn't I hear from Him? The Bible says that I'm His temple and He dwells in me! So how is he going to dwell in me when there are so many other spirits in me!!! CONVICTION RIGHT THERE!!! I cried out to God in sheer conviction asked for forgivness. As I was crying out God said take a shower right now! I cried on my way to the shower and as the water hit my body I felt a cleansing lik you would not believe!!! As I got out I felt new but God said I'm not done with you. Annoint your head with oil and give me the praise. I did just such and I AM FREE.

No more sexual sin for me! It is NOT ok to have sex before marriage! It is a gift to your husband or wife not for any Tom Dick or Derrick!! I'm sitting her wondering why I can't here from GOD and it's because there was no space in HIS temple!!

God wanted me to share this it is extremely intimate to me so please do not judge. I will say this.



Mar 22, 2011

Japan :(

So here I am relaxing in my room thinking everything is all good. I look into some websites and realize posts of people talking about a horrible earthquake on Mainland. I am stationed on Okinawa but we are an island and Mainland is a few thousand miles away. People were on Facebook that I knew were in Tokyo talking about how they lost their husbands and wanted to know if other family members was ok. Tokyo definately felt the wrath but not as much as northern Japan. I soon here of the Tsunami that wiped out almost all of the norther part of Japan. The reality kicked in that this was serious! The earthquake was a 8.9 and truly devestated Japan. On top of this the nucleur power plant is leaking radiation like crazy.

Immediately I think OMG what if Okinwa were to have an earthquake and tsunami of this strength! Our island would be completely wiped us. My selfishness kicks in and I think whew glad it wasn't me. My assitant Pastor spoke on this on Sunday. One of the things he said is what kind of witness were we being for others. In that moment I realized that my relief of my life was devesating to those that lost. There was a story of an older gentleman that went back after the earthquake just to get a photo album of his grandkids and the tsunami hit. They found his body pressed in between two walls with the photo album pressed against his chest.

How selfish I had been. The world does not need my selfishness it needs my prayers. Let us remember that others are hurting. Am I happy God spared me, yes I am, but let me do what's right and Christian and offer a prayer up to those that lost their lives and those that were spared that are struggling to live day to day without a home and clean water.

You are the King of Kings and Lord of Lords.With a heavy heart I come to you with a prayer of peace for those that have lost loved ones in these horrible weeks. We know that you love your childrena and continue to cover us with that love. We know that these things were foretold, let us be good examples so that we can be in the right place in our Christian walks because we do not know when our time will come. Bless those who are out there right now helping aid the Japanese people. Give them strength for the things that they might see and strength to continue with the mission. Lord allow the people to remember that you too have lost a Son and know how it feels to lose and you are there experiencing this with us. We love you Lord and we know your will heal all wounds. Send the Holy Spirit to those hurting as a comforter.

This we pray in Jesus name Amen

Feb 17, 2011

It's Gucci though!

Today was awesome. The day started out with work of course then me and my friends decided to go to the outlets and shop. We went to the Okinawa outlet mall. It had all the finest tastes out there. The first store we see is the Gucci store. My friend warned me that as soon as I walked in the prices would make me walk right back out. She wasn't lying! The first bag I saw was $1000!!! I was like ok Ima buy the smallest thing so that at least I can say I bought something Gucci but a keychain was $150!!!

 It was fun however to be in the store and act like I was rich lol. Most of the stores out there were like this! I finally find a Reebok store and an Adidas store and was happy. I finally just bought a $30 designer shirt. I can't wait for the day when God blesses me to the point where I can buy whatever I want. I just sometimes think even if I had that money would I waste it on the most expensive bags or would I use it for His will. Sometimes these things can be so enticing but we must know that our real treasures are in Heaven and are far better then Gucci bags that I can't take with me when I pass. Store your treasures in Heaven where rust nor moths can destroy. Gucci is nice but store your treasures properly in Heaven. Be happy with what you got.

Feb 13, 2011

God, My Valentine

Happy Valentines Day I guess,

So I just got into a heated discussion about why people don't celebrate valentines day. Ok it was me and my boyfriend arguing on why he doesn't celebrate it. His arguement, why spend one day to show someone you care. My arguement, you never show me on a daily basis that you care anyways!!! You say it all the time but action speaks louder then words! I am so upset right now and fighting back tears, after all I've been crying for like 1 hour already. He's on this SF assignment so I don't see him except to go to bed at night and when he wakes up at the crack of dawn to go to SF. So all week I don't see him and today is his only day off and we argue. I figure today we could celebrate Vday which brought up the discussion, after all he will be in the field for 3 days and not coming home-to include Vday! I was totally let down. I feel like he didn't miss me while he was gone, which he admits, and on top of that he thinks Vday is stupid so I don't get my Vday!
     The question I ask now is why do we put so much importance on Vday anyways? It was tradition with me and my family, we celebrate all holidays. Is it because we get gifts and are told we are loved on that day. God once again being the wonderful Father he is shined a light on me. For one, why am I seeking love in man. Man's love is conditional, God's love is unconditional. I'm looking for something that is right in front of my face! I want reassurance from my boyfriend that he loves me and he says he does but really where are the actions. So I figured that valentines would be the perfect time for that, and he DOESN'T EVEN CELEBRATE IT!!

God told me he can solve both my problems in one breath. 1. My daughter I will be your valentine. 2. I will always love you inspite of your mistakes, you'll never have to question that!

I love the Lord and will always put him first. Man has NOTHING on God and never will! <3

Feb 12, 2011

My dream and God's Salvation

We did a Bible study in the barracks and my lil Sis Brittany talked on Salvation. Well last night I had a horrible dream about my boyfriend and I, seems off topic but bare with me. Me and my O so wonderful boyfriend were dating and were they happiest of people. Well one day I decided to go out with the girls and drink. I went out with them but didn't enjoy it at all so I went home to my man. As I walked in the door he was packing his things. He found out about some things that I had been doing, not cheating but was mistaken as that. He said it was over. In my dream I was horrified!!! I begged and asked why but he wasn't bugging it was over and that was it. He walks out the door and I feel an incredible sadness. The next day he comes and knocks on my door and asks what I'm doing today, I was ecstatic thinking everything was ok. I asked and he said no we are just friends. I was like no I can't be your friend, like the old Deborah Cox song says we can't be friends cause I'm still in love with youuuu. ::Singing:: He continued to insist that that was all we were going to be. He continued to say that I didn't build a relationship with him cause all I did was go out. He said all I wanted was the title relationship. END DREAM HERE Well I woke up to his kiss and telling me goodbye (he had to work today) but boy was I pissed and sad at the same time. You know how you feel your dreams when you wake up :).
     I was like ok God what was that about? I took from it that God Salvation is free but like the Bible says you just saying that Jesus died on the cross and accepting Christ and the truth is NOT enough. It's like you just did it to get to Heaven but you must know God and obey his Word! God had a part in it and we have a part in it. Think on this God's part: Grace and Mercy, Jesus death at the cross, Resurrection of Jesus Christ, and God's Word. Our Part: Hear and learn God's Word- BIBLE-Basic Instruction Before Leaving Earth, Have Faith- saving faith is what you should have-Saving Faith- conviction and trust in Jesus that makes you want to obey God, Repent, Obedience, Confession of Christ, Baptism, Faithfulness and Endurance- NOONE said that once you become a Christian it will be easy. It actually becomes harder but guess what we have the bigger reward and you have Christ that has your back! The last thing needed is Church Membership! You need other Christians to strengthen you up when you feel week.
     I learned from my dream that my man wanted me to spend time with him and not just be a title. God wants us back in that same way! He wants more then just you to say John 3;16 he wants you to believe, act, and spend time with him. Build a relationship with Christ and spread the word so others can share in your joy!

Feb 11, 2011

God is gooood! OK so I paid off my car. Yes this big hunker here! I know that I'm always preached to about if you tithe God will pay you back. I used to not have faith and would hold onto my money so tight when it came for titheing and offering lol. Soon enough I started to go into debt and I was like why not try God, and heres a concept, have faith in my increase that I would recieve from him. I'm not gonna lie it's hard letting that money go! There was times when all I had left of funds was the money I was supposed to tithe! When I set my mind to it I decided to go ahead and give it all to God, even when it was my last. Some might say that they don't tithe because churches use it to pay the Pastors or for the Pastors car payments ::small snicker::. I won't lie some churches this may be true but not in all. Regardless of the fact let God deal with them as long as you are obedient to God you will get your blessing!

Long story short, God has NEVER let me down! My truck  is paid off in the states, my car is paid off here, and on top of that I may have a house already when I go home! Because of my faithfullness God has blessed me and continues to do so. It's all about being obedient and serving!

Now I can start saving money and setting up for me and my kids future successfully!

Feb 10, 2011

The Explanation

Ok so I decided to do a blog and show the world how wonderful life, or the experience at least, is. It's just a look at my everyday life. Some things interesting some things not so much. I consider this a way of venting so that I won't get so mad everyday. A lil about me I'm a mother of 3 and currently stationed in Okinawa Japan. I'm in the Army do I like it, kinda, it pays the bills so I don't complain. I am into God and the church so a majority of these messages are going to be things I have learned and things God has shown me. I'm a very happy person and try to stay that way. As I said earlier I do get mad a lot but I never show it to people bc I don't want anyone getting the best of me. Well I guess this is all I have to say for now. Follow me on my adventure of Life...