Happy Valentines Day I guess,
So I just got into a heated discussion about why people don't celebrate valentines day. Ok it was me and my boyfriend arguing on why he doesn't celebrate it. His arguement, why spend one day to show someone you care. My arguement, you never show me on a daily basis that you care anyways!!! You say it all the time but action speaks louder then words! I am so upset right now and fighting back tears, after all I've been crying for like 1 hour already. He's on this SF assignment so I don't see him except to go to bed at night and when he wakes up at the crack of dawn to go to SF. So all week I don't see him and today is his only day off and we argue. I figure today we could celebrate Vday which brought up the discussion, after all he will be in the field for 3 days and not coming home-to include Vday! I was totally let down. I feel like he didn't miss me while he was gone, which he admits, and on top of that he thinks Vday is stupid so I don't get my Vday!
The question I ask now is why do we put so much importance on Vday anyways? It was tradition with me and my family, we celebrate all holidays. Is it because we get gifts and are told we are loved on that day. God once again being the wonderful Father he is shined a light on me. For one, why am I seeking love in man. Man's love is conditional, God's love is unconditional. I'm looking for something that is right in front of my face! I want reassurance from my boyfriend that he loves me and he says he does but really where are the actions. So I figured that valentines would be the perfect time for that, and he DOESN'T EVEN CELEBRATE IT!!
God told me he can solve both my problems in one breath. 1. My daughter I will be your valentine. 2. I will always love you inspite of your mistakes, you'll never have to question that!
I love the Lord and will always put him first. Man has NOTHING on God and never will! <3
We did a Bible study in the barracks and my lil Sis Brittany talked on Salvation. Well last night I had a horrible dream about my boyfriend and I, seems off topic but bare with me. Me and my O so wonderful boyfriend were dating and were they happiest of people. Well one day I decided to go out with the girls and drink. I went out with them but didn't enjoy it at all so I went home to my man. As I walked in the door he was packing his things. He found out about some things that I had been doing, not cheating but was mistaken as that. He said it was over. In my dream I was horrified!!! I begged and asked why but he wasn't bugging it was over and that was it. He walks out the door and I feel an incredible sadness. The next day he comes and knocks on my door and asks what I'm doing today, I was ecstatic thinking everything was ok. I asked and he said no we are just friends. I was like no I can't be your friend, like the old Deborah Cox song says we can't be friends cause I'm still in love with youuuu. ::Singing:: He continued to insist that that was all we were going to be. He continued to say that I didn't build a relationship with him cause all I did was go out. He said all I wanted was the title relationship. END DREAM HERE Well I woke up to his kiss and telling me goodbye (he had to work today) but boy was I pissed and sad at the same time. You know how you feel your dreams when you wake up :).
I was like ok God what was that about? I took from it that God Salvation is free but like the Bible says you just saying that Jesus died on the cross and accepting Christ and the truth is NOT enough. It's like you just did it to get to Heaven but you must know God and obey his Word! God had a part in it and we have a part in it. Think on this God's part: Grace and Mercy, Jesus death at the cross, Resurrection of Jesus Christ, and God's Word. Our Part: Hear and learn God's Word- BIBLE-Basic Instruction Before Leaving Earth, Have Faith- saving faith is what you should have-Saving Faith- conviction and trust in Jesus that makes you want to obey God, Repent, Obedience, Confession of Christ, Baptism, Faithfulness and Endurance- NOONE said that once you become a Christian it will be easy. It actually becomes harder but guess what we have the bigger reward and you have Christ that has your back! The last thing needed is Church Membership! You need other Christians to strengthen you up when you feel week.
I learned from my dream that my man wanted me to spend time with him and not just be a title. God wants us back in that same way! He wants more then just you to say John 3;16 he wants you to believe, act, and spend time with him. Build a relationship with Christ and spread the word so others can share in your joy!
